Swing on a star ... walk on a cloud 22 August 2011

What would it be like

to swing on a star,

or walk on a cloud ?

Would it be anything like what I feel

... whenever you are near.

Falling in love is like looking at the stars.

If you pick one out of the billions

and stare at it long enough

all the others will melt away.

We were written in the stars, my love,

all that separated us, was time,

the time it took to read the map

which was placed within our hearts,

to find our way back to one another

What would it be like

to swing on a star,

or walk on a cloud ?

Would it be anything like what I feel

... whenever you are near.

Falling in love is like looking at the stars.

If you pick one out of the billions

and stare at it long enough

all the others will melt away.

We were written in the stars, my love,

all that separated us, was time,

the time it took to read the map

which was placed within our hearts,

to find our way back to one another

 from "Labrynth"

I have never known what "falling in love" or "being in love" was until You.  Il mio tesoro prezioso, il mio gladiatore. Quando ho sentito la tua voce, la mia anima ha conosciuto la verità. Quando ho letto il tuo viso, i tuoi occhi e il tuo sorriso - il mio cuore sapeva. Quando ho letto le tue parole di gioia, stupore, risate, sogni, del passato e per il futuro - la mia mente poteva finalmente credere.  Ti amo, tanti baci.

Arriverà il giorno in cui saremo insieme per sempre, fino ad allora speriamo che il miracolo che ci ha riunito elaborerà il percorso che ci vorrà per cancellare la distanza tra noi.

Forgive Yourself and Others 29 Oct 2010

Forgive yourself for all you ever thought was “wrong” about you. We as humans are our own worst critics. You put up with and in fact, encourage ways of speaking to yourself that most would NEVER put up with if someone else spoke to you that way. Always the first to tear down your dreams, poke a hole in your bubble of happiness, ridicule yourself for just being yourself. Give yourself a break, look at yourself with the eyes of love. Never believe for an instant you are not worthy of all your heart desires. Wrap yourself in love the same way you do your children, family members, friends and pets. Give yourself a pat on the back for all you do every day. Learn to become your own biggest fan.
-me
~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~

There are no differences too great to be overcome by Love. Love creates oneness where there is separation; healing where there is pain, light where there is darkness. Sharing your love without reserve, unconditionally, expecting nothing in return, the love you give away will find its way back to you in ways unimagined. Love for no reason other than to love fills your soul. You can if you choose to love without attachment, to send love to someone without approving of them or their actions. You can choose to love, seeing the best in someone they may be blind to themselves. You can choose to love yourself most of all. You are a loved, loveable and loving being. I choose to send you unconditional love right now. Do you choose to send yourself the same?

~♥~♥~♥~♥~♥~♥~♥~♥~♥~♥~♥~♥~♥~♥~♥~♥~♥~♥~♥~♥~
Paternoster:
“Oh Thou, from whom the breath of life comes, who fills all realms of sound, light and vibration.  May Your light be experienced in my utmost holiest. Your Heavenly Domain approaches. Let Your will come true – in the universe (all that vibrates) just as on earth (that is material and dense). Give us wisdom (understanding, assistance) for our daily need, detach the fetters of faults that bind us, (karma)like we let go the guilt of others.  Let us not be lost in superficial things (materialism, common temptations), but let us be freed from that what keeps us from our true purpose. From You comes the all-working will, the lively strength to act, the song that beautifies all and renews itself from age to age.
Sealed in trust, faith and truth.
~!~!~!~!~!~!~!~!~!~!~!~!~!~!~!~!~
“Holding on to anger is like grasping a hot coal with the intent of throwing it at someone else; you are the one who gets burned.”
~Buddha~
“When you hold resentment toward another, you are bound to that person or condition by an emotional link that is stronger than steel. Forgiveness is the only way to dissolve that link and get free.”
~Catherine Ponder~

17 August 2011 "That was Us"

Think of a time when an idea came to you that was so vivid and pure and was so true for you
...rolls of shivers started in one part of your body and then inundated every cell of your being.
You may call that Angel touches or
Love rushes.
That was Us.
Think of a time when you awakened at night with a thought so clear you knew it answered your every question.
That was Us.
Think of a time when you were so still you could hear music and knew it was the "music of the spheres."
That was Us.
Think of a time when you loved so totally you could not express it for there were no words invented
to translate the feeling.
That was Us.
Think of a time when the earth, and God, and You were so aligned that you knew it was your truth in all its glory.
That was Us.
Think of peace so deep you could not reach the bottom of it.
That was Us.
Think of a time you were so connected with love and light you said you were filled with God or the Holy Spirit.
You were.
But it was also Us.
We are not hard to find.
We are there in the stillness.
We are there in the waiting.
We are there in the knowing.
Just BE.
We are there.
Author Unknown

Tomorrow Is Not Promised

25 July 2011 at 19:49

Sometimes people come into your life and you know right away that they were meant to be there, they serve some sort of purpose, to teach you a lesson or help figure out who you are and who you want to become.
You never know who these people may be: your neighbor, child, long lost friend, lover, or even a complete stranger who, when you lock eyes with them, you know at that very moment that they will affect your life in some profound way.
And sometimes things happen to you and at the time they seem painful and unfair, but in reflection you realize that without overcoming those obstacles you would have never realized your potential strength, will power, or heart.
Everything happens for a reason.
Nothing happens by chance or by means of good or bad luck.
Illness, injury, love, lost moments of true greatness and sheer stupidity all occur to test the limits of your soul.
Without these small tests, whether they be events, illnesses or relationships, life would be like a smoothly paved straight flat road to nowhere, safe and comfortable, but dull and utterly pointless.
The people you meet who affect your life and the successes and downfalls you experience create who you are, and even the bad experiences can be learned from, In fact, they are probably the poignant and important ones.
If someone hurts you, betrays you or breaks your heart, forgive them, for they have helped you learn about trust
and the importance of being cautious to whom you open your heart ...
If someone loves you, love them back unconditionally, not only because they love you, but because they are teaching you to love and opening your heart and eyes to things you would have never seen or felt without them.
Make every day count.
Appreciate every moment and take from it everything that you possibly can, for you may never be able to experience it again...
Talk to people you have never talked to before, and actually listen, let yourself fall in love, break free and set your sights high...

Hold your head up because you have every right to.
Tell yourself you are a great individual and believe in yourself ... for if you don't believe in yourself, no one else will believe in you either.
You can make of your life anything you wish.
Create your own life and then go out and live in it!
"Live Each Day As If It Were Your Last...
Tomorrow is Not Promised"

Author Anon

And because it is not promised, grab the brass ring TODAY.  Create Your Own Life and LIVE IT ... yeppers

Endings are ... Beginnings 2 Jul 2011

1. Use this affirmation to remind yourself to keep facing forward: I am open to discovering the gift, the new beginning, wrapped up in this ending.
2. When confronted with an ending, a rejection, or a dead end, contemplate the take-away lesson by asking yourself: “What did I just learn about myself? What did I learn about the way life works? And how will I apply what I learned to the rest of my life?”
3. Letting go is a step-by-step process and it is not always easy. Acknowledge your pain. Don’t ignore your feelings, but don’t allow your life to be hijacked by them either. Once you’ve given yourself time to process your emotions and grieve, whenever you notice your thoughts starting to wander along the twists and turns of the past, gently bring yourself back to the present. You may have to do this again and again. That’s okay. Be patient with yourself.
4. Stop talking about and dwelling on the people you believe hurt or betrayed you. Ask friends to stop bringing up those memories as well. Instead, focus on and talk about the positive aspects of your life right now and the wonderful things you are looking forward to welcoming into your life. You are the author of the next chapter in your life. Claim your power to create your new story.
*Patricia Spadaro *


Nov 2011
... focus on and talk about the positive aspects of your life right now and the wonderful things you are looking forward to welcoming into your life. You are the author of the next chapter in your life. Claim your power to create your new story...

This is what I am doing now.  Focusing on My future, focusing on ME and my happiness and focusing on the directions that I will go to be absolutely positively one with my own story.

I have some choices to make and I am at once excited and nervous.   Taking giant leaps have been easy enough for me to do.  This one may just be the longest and greatest giant leap for my life, to live my life in love and contentment.

Endings are beginnings and I am amazed at how great the feelings are to Not look back in pain, to Look forward.  Of course there are initial shocks always to certain events ( my souvenir envelope from Hawaii ) however, I truly can honestly say, with absolute conviction - that the initial shock wears off and I am quite happy and content ... for I am no longer living in the past with so many endings.

I choose blossoming from the mud and rising on wings from the ashes of the Endings, Free to Create my own Life my way and with Love, Knowledge, Experience to move forward into prosperity with grace.

Dec 2011
I admit, this is a very difficult time for me.  Patience is a virtue and in this regard, I can be very patient most of the time, even when a small part of me feels like a child that "wants it Now" - this is the hardest part of being an Adult in a world where we do not always have the helm..  Patience for the Master Plan, patience for the Destiny, patience for the Achievement of the Goals ... Faith, Hope and Love, the greatest of these is Love and Patience is part of Love ♥

Cliffs of Moher Ireland

 We are the music makers,

We are the dreamers of dreams,

Wandering by lone sea-breakers,

And sitting by desolate streams; --

World-losers and world-forsakers,

On whom the pale moon gleams:

We are the movers and shakers

Of the world for ever, it seems.

Ode by Arthur O'Shaughnessy (1844-1881)

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=yEpX2BcB9As

21 October 2009

Dear Tech Support, Can you install LOVE?

 Wednesday, 21 October 2009 at 23:13 ( from a dear sweet friend )

Customer Service Rep: Can you install LOVE?

Customer: I can do that. I'm not very technical, but I think I am ready to install now. What do I do first?
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Customer Service Rep: The first step is to open your HEART. Have you located your HEART ma'am?

Customer: Yes I have, but there are several programs running right now. Is it okay to install while they are running?
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Customer Service Rep: What programs are running ma'am?

Customer: Let me see.... I have PASTHURT.EXE, LOWESTEEM.EXE, GRUDGE.EXE, and RESENTMENT.COM running right now.
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Customer Service Rep: No problem. LOVE will automatically erase PASTHURT.EXE from your current operating system. It may remain in your permanent memory, but it will no longer disrupt other programs. LOVE will eventually overwrite LOWESTEEM.EXE with a module of its own called HIGHESTEEM.EXE. However, you have to completely turn off GRUDGE.EXE and RESENTMENT.COM. Those programs prevent LOVE from being properly installed. Can you turn those off ma'am?

Customer: I don't know how to turn them off. Can you tell me how?
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Customer Service Rep: My pleasure. Go to your Start menu and invoke FORGIVENESS.EXE. Do this as many times as necessary until GRUDGE.EXE and RESENTMENT.COM have been completely erased.

Customer: Okay, I'm done. LOVE has started installing itself automatically. Is that normal?
*
Customer Service Rep: Yes it is. You should receive a message that says it will reinstall for the life of your HEART. Do you see that message?

Customer: Yes I do. Is it completely installed?
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Customer Service Rep: Yes, but remember that you have only the base program. You need to begin connecting to other HEARTS in order to get the upgrades.

Customer: Oops...I have an error message already. What should I do?
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Customer Service Rep: What does the message say?

Customer: It says "ERROR 412 - PROGRAM NOT RUN ON INTERNAL COMPONENTS". What does that mean?
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Customer Service Rep: Don't worry ma'am, that's a common problem. It means that the LOVE program is set up to run on external HEARTS but has not yet been run on your HEART. It is one of those complicated programming things, but in non-technical terms it means you have to "LOVE" your own machine before it can "LOVE” others.

Customer: So what should I do?
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Customer Service Rep: Can you find the directory called "SELF-ACCEPTANCE"?

Customer: Yes, I have it.
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Customer Service Rep: Excellent, you are getting good at this.

Customer: Thank you.
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Customer Service Rep: You're welcome. Click on the following files and then copy them to the "MYHEART" directory: FORGIVESELF.DOC, SELFESTEEM.TXT, REALIZEWORTH.TXT, and GOODNESS.DOC. The system will overwrite any conflicting files and begin patching any faulty programming. Also, you need to delete SELFCRITIC.EXE from all directories, and then empty your recycle bin afterwards to make sure it is completely gone and never comes back.

Customer: Got it. Hey! My HEART is filling up with really neat files. SMILE.MPG is playing on my monitor right now and it shows that WARMTH.COM, PEACE.EXE, and CONTENTMENT.COM are copying themselves all over my HEART!
*
Customer Service Rep: Then LOVE is installed and running. You should be able to handle it from here. One more thing before I go...

Customer: Yes?
*
Customer Service Rep: LOVE is freeware. Be sure to give it and its various modules to everybody you meet. They will in turn share it with other people and they will return some really neat modules back to you.

Customer: I will. Thank you for your help.

* God Bless you EV *

A PERFECT PEARL OF PEACE

 By John Lowe

Fear not all the wars and religious hate
That so many seem to precipitate

Fear not freedoms lost or the genocide
That seem to infect the lesser inclined

Fear not politics that creates division
By those who just lack the greater vision

Fear not the darkness that seems to abound
In every corner and in every sound

They’re just irritants like the grain of sand
Round which the oyster creates something grand

For like the oyster they serve to awake
The creative spirit that just awaits

For just the perfect opportunity
To express itself in humanity

For in their place when hostilities cease
We shall craft a perfect pearl of peace


~~ I have lost track of how many times I have listened to Beethoven's Moonlight Sonata as I write this ... I truly fear there will never be a perfect pearl of peace.   I lost someone , and in losing Him, others lost Him as well.  Others I had never known before Him.  Some still remain and I truly am not sure now how to respond to that.  It is not a matter of pride or remorse, more a matter of temperament.

When I realized I loved him, I pushed it away and tucked it aside.  I shoved it under the books, the clothes, and inside the clogs - I had no time nor less the energy to face on the emotions.  For how could I love someone I had never met.

Oh dearest Divine, why did graduation sneak up on me and then suddenly, I found myself casting about ...... first to deal with the exorbitant heatwave; then the failure of the HvAC system ( thank you so much ); then once that was replaced and all the crap blew through the house and all of us got so sick.   Then to study  and as I studied everything seemed to exponentially aggregate and I kept losing myself in the momentum ... my solace was here and there.   I felt I belonged, that I had friends, that I was wanted for that which I could provide by way of sharing the insight of others.   That in and of itself is so false.  The solace can be found of its own accord.  I can get lost in my own melancholy; my own denouement; my own swan lake; my own Beethoven.  I can certainly find peace in my own mantra - you gave me that 35 years ago - can you believe it has been that long ???

I know you love me.  I know I believe in you.  I am so very sorry that I cannot say the same for mankind.   I know there is a reason you brought me back - and help me to understand, because I am failing to see the roadsigns, the signposts, the message ..... I accept a solitary path, I truly do.  The compass spins 360 and settles nowhere, not even on true and yet, yet, I believe in You.   It is absolutely okay with me to venture forward alone with the furbabies, yet I have no signs, no markers, no painted slashes upon the forest to know which path to take, which way to go ???

I am so sorry in advance or in retrospect for any , ANY, pain I have caused any one of your children.  I never meant to - I know I lashed out from ego - two times ? Three ?  How many Hail Mary's will that require ?  I just know that we all are unsettled, or they are feeling my unsettled, and I need you, more than ever, I truly Really need your divine guidance, ministration and advocacy.  Please with all my love

SS's first recital  ~~~  I know she was flawless ~~~ http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=W2N5iyQuFWI&feature=share

28 September 2011, Oriah Invitation

Also post September 8, 2011 - guess it speaks to me a Lot, my own poem follows picture.

It doesn’t interest me
what you do for a living.
I want to know
what you ache for
and if you dare to dream
of meeting your heart’s longing.
It doesn’t interest me
how old you are.
I want to know
if you will risk
looking like a fool
for love
for your dream
for the adventure of being alive.
It doesn’t interest me
what planets are
squaring your moon...
I want to know
if you have touched
the centre of your own sorrow
if you have been opened
by life’s betrayals
or have become shrivelled and closed
from fear of further pain.
I want to know
if you can sit with pain
mine or your own
without moving to hide it
or fade it
or fix it.
I want to know
if you can be with joy
mine or your own
if you can dance with wildness
and let the ecstasy fill you
to the tips of your fingers and toes
without cautioning us
to be careful
to be realistic
to remember the limitations
of being human.
It doesn’t interest me
if the story you are telling me
is true.
I want to know if you can
disappoint another
to be true to yourself.
If you can bear
the accusation of betrayal
and not betray your own soul.
If you can be faithless
and therefore trustworthy.
I want to know if you can see Beauty
even when it is not pretty
every day.
And if you can source your own life
from its presence.
I want to know
if you can live with failure
yours and mine
and still stand at the edge of the lake
and shout to the silver of the full moon,
“Yes.”
It doesn’t interest me
to know where you live
or how much money you have.
I want to know if you can get up
after the night of grief and despair
weary and bruised to the bone
and do what needs to be done
to feed the children.
It doesn’t interest me
who you know
or how you came to be here.
I want to know if you will stand
in the centre of the fire
with me
and not shrink back.
It doesn’t interest me
where or what or with whom
you have studied.
I want to know
what sustains you
from the inside
when all else falls away.
I want to know
if you can be alone
with yourself
and if you truly like
the company you keep
in the empty moments.

I wish I could say that I had written the above

I wish I could say these truths to a true love

I wish I could hope that time will provide

I wish I could hope for him by my side

I wish I had known every option then

I wish I had known the road beyond the bend

I wish for the day that grants me the chance

I wish for the day I am asked for The dance

I wish for time to continue to grow

I wish for time to continue to sow

I wish that you would wish the same

I wish that you would stake your claim

I wish for that moment of truly alone

I wish for that moment of completely as one.

quotes

“When the student is ready, the teacher will appear. To understand everything is to forgive everything. You cannot travel the path, until you have become the path itself. However many inspiring words you read, however many you speak, what good will they do you, if you do not act upon them?” ~ Buddhist quotes


I have so much still to forgive.  I have so much travel to do.  I try to inspire by thought, word, deed and yet , I have so much to learn.  Please forgive me as I try to forgive myself.